by -gigi-

漫天银霞。。。我们，有过很多这样的夜晚。回忆重重叠叠，沉重得像快要了我的命。我如何能够忘掉你。。。

我只能这样看着你…

by -elf's gigi-

你说，人的一生总会有必须放下的
我说，毕竟是含着泪走过的路…一点一滴都有回忆的价值
我们都是有故事的人
我们都是倚仗着回忆过活的人
即使这一刻只能痛哭，我们…都必须微笑着步行
没有人愿意流泪
当天空依旧蔚蓝

亲爱的…我看见你的痛
无论你距离我多远…我依然看见你的痛
因为我的痛，此刻正和你一样
我一如往昔，站在远处看着你的悲伤
但我却只能陪你痛苦，不能与你同行
亲爱的…别放弃…好吗
无论这路多崎岖
但只有这个距离我能够清楚的看见你
所以，别放弃…好吗…？

笑里的痛

by -elf's gigi-

紧紧握住你略冒汗的手 在我们初相遇的梯间
我的悲伤 只有你看得最清晰
没有人比你更了解我

很想一直就这样的和你走下去
如果不能和你一辈子 接下来的日子我又能做些什么？

上天是公平的 给予你一些 夺走你一些
然而 我忘了上天给了我什么 却深刻地记下了被夺走的
我 失去了这一生最想珍惜的人
你呢 失去了什么？

你总是这样对我笑着 无论心里有多忧愁
你没有说 但我隐约能体会
你笑 是因为太痛苦
我们都习惯用笑容掩饰心底的痛楚
不想让人察觉任何一点的哀伤 哪怕此刻撕心裂肺般痛

再见你 我已经不会再问起你的近况
只因不想不经意地会碰触了你的痛处
我只想你过得好好的 快快乐乐的
无论幸福离你有多远 也只不过是那么一段路

到不了的幸福

by -elf's gigi-

最近很喜欢听一首新歌。。。《到不了的幸福》
歌词是这样的

电话那一头的你 说也许我们该各退一步
电话这一边的我 眼泪悄悄流出却不想哭
这场爱情是不是一开始就是错误
为了什么 我们固执的坚持
换来的却是痛苦
跌跌撞撞这一条爱情路
我们看到的只有荒芜
辛辛苦苦跟随你的脚步
等待我们的不是幸福

很写实
象征着我们现代人的爱情写照
一开始就没有的空虚
总比后来失去的痛苦要好吧。。。

我们。。。为什么会走到了这一步。。。

唯独你…

by -gigi-
　
这一辈子，我们也许不会是情侣。
老天在让我们相识以前，便已经赐给了你最温柔的天使…
而今，你已经有一个固定的另一半…
或许，未来的我会有一个深爱的男人…
我们不能是情侣…
然而，我对你的感觉竟是那么的特别…你给我的感觉，也只有从你那里才能找到…独独对你…
即使我们不会是情侣…
这感觉，或许不会再有了，也不会再遇上了…
亲爱的…别让我找不着你…好吗？
请不要爱我…也不要吻我…但至少让我感觉你会永远在我身边…至少让我在伸手的时候…能触及你的体温…好吗…

Diary 24.07.10

by -elf's gigi-

22.07.10
Cloudy... As well as my feelings...
I thought you may waiting for some new updates of my blog. So do i... I waiting for your comment after you read my recent notes. Oh dear, what did I do to make you leaving in rush... Look forward, what you've forgotten... You did promised, there's a long journey we will walk together...
10:43pm at night, Finally received a massage from you. A greeting... And a apologized... Reading it in tears...

23.04.10
Cloudy. Start thinking of your massage that last night you sent to me. A part of our memory start flashing in my head... All the happenings of our precious times... Just between you and me... Although just a little thing.... Feel happiness... and I've got to against the loneliness with this from losing you...

24.07.10
Sunny day. A flashback start when I standing downstair of my home... Memorized those days you drive me to work... Some sweet memories we've been through...
I saw you cross over my place, it was 30 minutes ago. I couldn't straight forward to look at you, will makes me lose control... Almost tearing...
I know you are going to live out of my life... You have a new beginning's without me. I have to admit it... Although It might need a long long time to recover... And I wouldn't know how long it takes... But, I have to admit it... I'm losing you...

don't leave ...

by -elf's gigi-

19.07.10
you told me that you will leave me, you said you was disturb my life a very long time... oh dear, this moment, i'm not request you to stay but i'm begging you don't leave me too far... don't too far till i couldn't get you...

20.07.10
you didn't leave me any of news... just blank... i keep thinking of what you said to me... feel getting worse... a sense of losing you keep rounding in my head... how can i get it out of my head...? please, give me an advise... or just a slightly promise to stabilize my mind...

21.07.10
you left me a massage to remind me update my blogger when free... ya, the blog i created was just because of you... i just waiting a suitable timing and waiting you to remind me that is time to update something new for you. i just want you to keep connect with me, no matter where you are, no matter how far... you can't just disappear like this way... i know, you will keep that in mind. i know, you will not do that to me.

nothing can be our distance but times...

悲歌

如果你曾经看见我的笑容，亲爱的，我依旧如昔。我只是巧妙把认识你以前的笑容重挂於脸上。轻描淡写的问候，我只是不想让你知道内心隐隐的纠结。。。

重翻旧诗篇
惊觉昔日的悲凉
踏碎了枯叶 血泪俱下
凋零的心 形如残梅 不堪入目
每一页 都是凄绝
每一句 都是悲恸
走过了凛风飞霜的年华
即使再也回不去缠绵的春天
我紧握着泪迹斑斑的誓约
等待 何时竟成了信仰
暮色依旧 景物已非
仿佛看见了那夜的月
伴着兰香 你在星光下踏露归来
梦有多真 情有多深
离魂 只为了寻回你的容颜

my faith...

i must stand confident
although live without you
i must stand confident
although my youth is fading because of waiting you
i know that everyone have a faith
so do i
what i belief is only await
god has gave me the faith to survive
and granted me a life's time to persist in my faith
i knew
you wouldn't appear
only god knows
i breathing, just because of waiting you
even though you are not exist...

11-04-2010

吻你 抚你
倘若这些都只能凭空想象
我宁可掏空思绪
拥你 爱你
倘若这些都只能倚在梦中
我宁可离凡弃魄
也不愿活在没有你的空间

i miss you

"Is that difficult for you to believe me? i guess so, cause i have nothing to trust."
This, was the last massage he sent to me...
Perhaps, i still missing something he try to say...
it's too late, i would never see him again. he chosen a way to disappear just like a wind lightly through by my life.
The last scene i saw him, it's a really dark and cold night... i have never feel that cold before.
He seems like tired, anxious. but still embracing me gently.
"what if i tell you i'm leaving? would you remember me?" He's holding my hands tightly. i can clearly hear his breathe in tense, his face close to me gradually.
closer and closer. his breath seducing me, no one knows how attractive he do.
Tears, is the only thing to prove how much i miss him, and how deep i love him...

谎言

“对不起 ，请原谅我的自私”
你知道吗？
我总觉得 你不是最爱我的
否则 无论贫贱疾苦 你也一定会留在我身边
予你而言 那句无限歉意的道别 无懈可击
看似伟大 冠冕堂皇得足以让我畏缩
无论爱你有多深

昔日承诺 几缕轻烟
停留的 仅剩下最后一滴令人惊心的泪。

道歉等于伤害

不要告诉我要怎么做
我已然明白
爱上你只是一场遗留前世的梦
我终究不是留待你身边的那一位
我没有一丝的抱怨
所以 也请你别显露任何歉意
你的道歉 是我锥心的痛
我宁可与你道别
也不愿看见你眼里的愧疚
这只会让我更加的舍不得下一趟轮回。。。

花香

你有没有闻过幸福的味道
清新的·湿漉漉的，芳香扑鼻，
令人留连忘返。。。